i love it when we're cruisin' together...

Back again. Anyway, I am on Cloud9. And I am happy. Alhamdulillah. Although, yes I need adjusting. Its probably not gonna be an easy ride. But I am ready to try. Since I have..hmmm.. leaped? Leaped into this relationship with the person who is making me smile while typing :)

I am glad he is making this easy, for the both of us. Like I said, it should be easy. No games. No beating around the bush etc. I'm loving every second of what I'm feeling right now. Although, hmmm... talks about future does give me goosebumps but I am slowly accepting the idea. Insyaallah.

I dont know where we're headed. But we're on our way. :) May have stolen that from someone. hahahahah But i mean it. Ok thats all for now. I am missing him soooo very much right now. Cant wait to see him soon.

xoxo

Just the way you are

Pressure. Its kicking in now. I guess this love is not easy after all. Maybe, just maybe, it will end before we even realize it.

Often times... hate is more genuine than love. Self explanatory.
Why am I sad? Well, the fact that the word "love" means very little to some. Easy come, easy go.

I have been running away from all this crap. Right back where I started. Maybe, there is something about me that triggers him off so easily. I will drive him away, eventually. What is the point anymore. Really. Manage expectations. That is easier said than done.

Maybe I am not in love too. Its crazy. This is crazy. I'm digging my own grave.

I always bounce back. Each time it hurts less, I guess. I should stay numb.

Till then.

k a n g e n

Aduhai. Ive been listening to sappy love songs now. Sigh.Not Again! hahaahha anyway, feeling is good. For now. Insyaallah it'll be great all the way through. Missing someone badly is soooo not easy.

I know I need to rationalize things. Dont get too carried away. I must remember, even water runs dry.Love can too. I hope its not just infatuation. I hope the feelings are real. Ive always believed that love should be easy. No games. No problems. No draining of emotions. And Im glad I found someone who thinks and feels the sme way as I do.

Yes. I am terrified of commitments. Its not that Im not ready to get married and all. Its just that shit happens a lot back then when marriage was on the platter. What Im having with him now, has no pressure on me. I dont know where this might lead us to. But I hope its to a good place. Im tired of relationships. But Im loving every second of it. I may get bitten in the ass. I dont know. And like I said, I always always learn things the hard way.

Now Im adding pressure to myself. Rationalize. Sigh. I am falling for him. Hopefully not too fast than I can manage. He is different. Just sad that I have turned into this stonecold b**** no thanks to my past experience. But Im adjusting.

I miss you sayang. Like maaaddddness. Anyway, cant wait to see him next Monday :( a week from today. I rally wish we'll do great and I wont need to delete this post.

xoxo

Im back mate!

Just got back from Gold Coast. Trip was alright. Of course we had Sofea for the whole 4 days which was fun! heheheh... but it rained almost everyday there. That sucked. We ended up shopping more hehehehe not complaining but would have loved to see more surfers and sun and sand :D

Didnt take that many photos though. Hmmm maybe this wasnt a camwhoring trip hahahaha... i took photos, just not of myself..thats a change. Anyway, I went to Movieworld. That was fun. Went on all the rides there and then it started drizzling. Potong stim la weyyy!!!! hahahaha rempits

We only went for 4 days. It was ok la. Enough damage la! I thnk I bought 27 dresses! ahhahaha scarrrryyyyy dont know what happened, really!

Anyway, I am smitten as hell now.

:D

xoxo

Its been a while

Yes.. It has been a while since i last posted anything up here. Seems kinda weird now. Well, a lot has happened since I last wrote.

I am still loving my space, alone. I enjoy it a lot. Oh did I mention I quit smoking? Hmmm... Well that took place after my surgery. I was sick waaaay too often for my own good and found out I had chronic sinusitis. So I actually made a promise to myself to quit smoking since I know my health was deteriorating before my eyes. So thats what I did. I quit on New Year's day. Right from 0000hours!
Insyaallah I will be able to go through this. Alhamdulillah it has been easy.

Anyway, I have been shishaing. If that helps. Hmmmm....In my defense, I do not inhale the vapour from shisha. I only like the sweet taste. And probably Im still addicted to blowing. Hmmmm

So what else is new here? I found a new hangout place. Its called Tajine. As selfish as I may sound, I like the fact that this place is quiet. Most of the time. I have privacy, WiFi, shisha, and excellent service. Prices here are also reasonable. I love it. Its a minute drive from my pad. Lovely.

I have been pretty busy with results. Well, its February. What do you expect huh? Most of the companies decided to release their results at the final week itself. Madness I tell you! I havent had enough sleep in ages. Or weeks. K la dramaqueen!!! heheheh

Tomorrow night I'll be off to Gold Coast. With my family! Can you believe it? We havent done this in agesss!! NOW thats a FACT!! The ONLY sole reason as to why we're going for a holiday is SOFEA! ehhehehe
oh Yeah! She turned 1 2 weeks back. What a delight! She is soooo smart!!! MasyaAllah. The cutest ever! Cant wait for the trip.

Anyway, I have a new song in my head that I kept repeating. "Your Heart is As Black As Night"...by Melody Gardot..
Cause your hands may be strong, and the feeling is all wrong..but your heart is as black as night..