Abuse

Abuse comes in many forms. Physical, mental, emotional...

Why am I putting up with this?

Grrrrr

I dont know this feeling! I hate it!!!!! Why do I have to go through this? I dont like it not one bit. Maybe I should make a decision. Like pronto!

I smell fish. Or fishes. Anyway, what can i say? I cant say much now can I? Grrrrr i will roar once i get pushed over my limits.

I feel like screaming now. I do. I hate uncertainties. It makes me feel like crap. Sigh.

Till then.
:'(

Hey Square One! Again!

Since my last post, I have been on an emotional rollercoaster. Daily fights that is causing major distractions and recurrent heartaches. We're not gonna make it. In fact, it ended last night. Despite everything that happened, I miss him greatly. That is normal I guess. Insyaallah I'll be fine. I am so weak right now. I am vulnerable. I am in a lot of pain. Emotionally. Mentally. And physically tired. I'm knackered.

At least we tried. With both hands and feet. Its just that I wasnt what he desired. Thus, I dont see the point in trying to make things work when they just aren't. Its probably like fixing a broken glass. The flaws and cracks will always be seen, and yet it is still susceptible to just shatter in pieces. Or in other words, just like an unstable chemical, that may lead to explosion.

I am not ok.